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Everything seems ryt til i found out those notes on ole’s phone. It pissed me off. It reminds me about what happened 2 years ago. Im the type of a girl that won’t believe in any guy that time this traumatic feeling wont go away til i met you, Le. you make me forget bout those shit moments. But ryt now, those shit moments happened again, twice in my life. Pretty sad, eh? I thought you’re different. I thought you are a man who can treat her girl ryt. I tought you’ll never break my heart but once again thats just my thoughts :”””( when i knew bout that notes i tried to cheer myself up, i keep smiling, no matter how much things making me sad on the inside, i kept on talking with you lyk everything is okay, I tried to hide what i feel inside. Im fine. I’m totally fine. you’ll never know how it feels, Le hahaha but i’m okay.. you just see a smile that i fake. But i can’t lie to myself. I’m disappointed. Ihateyou but iloveyou more that i hate you. I love you way too much. cause when you truly care for someone, their mistakes never change our feelings because its the mind that gets angry but the heart still cares. But you know, you can say sorry a million times say iloveyou as much as you want say whatever you want whatever or however you want but if you’re not going to prove that the things you say are true then dont say anything at all. If you can’t show it your words dont mean a thing for me. Iloveyou but i yet belive in you anymore. I’m sorry Le. this massive pain is still aching me. #nowplaying Thankyou for the broken heart by J Rice.

Today is our anniv, it feels different yahh :’c

Sorry for not being a perfect girlfriend. i get jealous easily. I’m stubborn. I pms. I overthink. I get insecure. But i promise you that my heart its all yours.. i’ll be loyal i’ll be here when you need me. I’ll love you to the greatest extent i can. I’ll do whatever i can to hold our relationship together. Happy 4th months anniversary, Le.. thankyou for being there when i need you. I hope it will keep on..